It's Complicated

People keep asking me how I feel.  All I want to tell them is, "It's...complicated."

I am happy that I will have relief from my many physical "woman" problems, but as I stated before, it's complicated.

We were done having babies (I had a tubaligation after my csec with Mals), but I almost feel ungrateful to my Heavenly Father for "rejecting" the gift and miracle of creating life.  This is no longer an option for me.  I will not create another life while on this Earth.

Physically- I am healing really well, and quickly.  Some mild discomfort, but I have been blessed with being a quick healer. 

Emotionally-It's complicated.

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