If you are expecting something sarcastic, funny, or about my precious babies, you might want to skip this post. It is on a slightly more serious note.
I hope I don't get in trouble for writing this. For years, I have wanted to live in a warmer climate. I was diagnosed with Fibromayalgia three years ago, and I just feel better when it is warm. It would be nice to feel better more often so when people ask me how I feel, I don't have to fake a smile and say that I am feeling fine, when really all I want to do is find some strong meds and lay down.
Ed seems slightly open to the idea of living somewhere warm. I have to admit that the thought of being able to raise my babies alongside my sister is very appealing. I miss her so much.
So, where does the internal conflict come into play? I love this Valley. I love the people here. I love the school my kids go to. I love the teachers and staff at that school. I love the small town feel. I love watching the seasons change. I love taking my kids to Bear Lake in the summer. We have an amazing yard! I love it....BUT, I love my mom and dad. I love my sister and her family. I love my brothers and their familys. I miss my nieces and nephews so much. I cried half of the way home when I had to leave my sister's house after Ryder was born. I feel like I am missing my nieces and nephews (on my side) grow up. I love that in Ca everything you need is so close. There are so many things to do there.
If any of you think about it, I would love your prayers. I need to find a greater sense of peace. Whether we are to stay or go.